A Look Back At January

Okay but in all seriousness how many months did January drag on for???

January always feels like the longest month, but this year, I’m not sure what it is, but it feels like it has dragged on even more than usual – and I’m so over it. I am desperate for the spring and summer months, with warmer weather and blue skies. I feel like I haven’t seen the sun for months; summer can’t come quick enough.

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At the start of the January, I promised my self that every month I would reflect over what had happened and what I had achieved, just so in the future I can look back at it. Also on the bad days it’ll make me realise it isn’t always bad.

So after 3 weeks back home, I arrived back at university on January 4th, full of excitement to start the new term. Quickly this excitement disappeared and I went through a very rough patch with my mental health. It was the worst it had been since I moved out and learning to deal with it solely on my own was so hard. Although my parents are only a phone call away, it’s not quiet the same. Nonetheless a few weeks of feeling particularly bad, towards the end of January I’ve started to feel myself again. Multiple people have said it’s nice to have the sarcastic Han back, so I must be getting better. Something that I am particularly proud of is not caving in and giving my head what it wanted, which was for me to be incredibly miserable, I powered on through, didn’t go home, got through a fairly shit time and came out the other end, a lot happier as well.

In terms of university work, I’ve started a new project choosing to focus it all around psychedelia (my favourite subculture…after mods) and also a completely new module focussed on fabric and colour technology – it’s very sciencey. Surprisingly I love the science side, it’s something I’ve taken a particular liking too and I quite like the idea of studying it further after my degree. Last term I handed in 3 different modules, 2 practical and one essay and in January I got my grades back for all of these, grades that I was ecstatic with. I worked my butt off for all those had ins, which payed off as I received 2 1st grades and also a 2:1.

January also saw me book my flat for next year, a very adult thing to do…I still don’t feel old enough to be doing this! I made the right choice to book a shared flat, in a place 2 minutes from town and a short walk from university. It’s a completely new complex with a cinema, study room, cafe and a gym, perfect.

Lastly, January saw me finally get back into blogging. I had sort of said at the end of last year I had really ben struggling to keep up with blogging, university, running and a social life, which meant blogging took a bit of a back seat. But since the new year I’ve just set myself a goal for 1 blog post a week and so far, so good, I’ve stuck to it and for the first time I’m really happy with the content I’m putting out. This also shows in my blog views which have sky rocketed, so this month has been good for that also! I had my first blogger event of the year too, a Kiehl’s beauty event, which was so much fun. I was seriously thinking about not going because of my anxiety, but it’s stopped me doing too much over the past couple of years, so I forced myself to go and conquer my anxieties, I’m very glad I did, as I met some lovely bloggers and had a fab time!

January for the most part was fairly rubbish, but as it draws to a close it is starting to pick up again, I just hope it continues to do so! Here’s hoping February holds slightly less tears and more blue skies, that’ll make me very happy I’m sure!

Han xx

5 Things Every Student Must Do In 2018

University is a time for personal, social and academic growth, it’s the only time in your life where its acceptable for you to leave the house for a 9AM still in your pyjamas (apparently thats frowned upon in the adult world?). With only 3 years to make the most of the full university lifestyle, I’ve complied a list of things that I think every student must do in 2018.

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1. Have your own ‘Come Dine with Me’ dinner party.

Me and my flatmate have an unhealthy obsession with Come Dine with Me, with frequent discussions of what dishes we would cook up if we were to have our own. I think this would be great fun, taking it in turns to cook up your favourite student meals – I mean this could potentially end up with you having beans on toast for your main, but its all part of the fun right?

2. Try out a new society or club

Every year, most freshers events have a day where you can go along to campus and have a mooch at all the societies that the university have available. Not only will trying out something new teach you something you’ve never done before, but it will also introduce you to an entirely new group of friends and social activities. I found settling into university particularly hard, but since I have joined the pole fitness society, I’ve made a bunch of new friends and also have been invited to many social activities, all while doing something good for myself!

3. Go on a night out sober

Okay, this might sound like madness, but hear me out. Like any first year student, I’ve been on my fair share of nights out that involve cheap drinks, having said this I’m not actually a massive drinker, so I’ve also been on a few nights out completely sober and let me tell you they are just as good, if not sometimes better than the ones when I’ve been drinking. Not only will you remember everything from the night out, but you’ll also wake up hangover free, give it a go, you might surprise yourself.

4. Have an elaborate picnic on the university green

Most universities have their own green spaces for students to sit and relax (admittedly no one in their right mind is currently using them in January) but when it comes to summer, make use of them! Get a group of your pals together, all bring a different picnic style food and enjoy the sun and the campus!

5. Make friends with someone from another country

Preferably a country you’ve never met anyone from before – if not any country will do. Not only will this give you a new friend, but it will also allow you to learn a whole array of things about their country and culture that you may not have known – it will open your eyes to the world, I’m sure of it.

I could go on for ages about things that I think all students must do this year, university is a time where there is so much pressure to do well, that I think it is important to take time out for yourself and do things like this to enjoy yourself, as thats also what university is about. Your university experience is what you make it and its only 3/4 years, so make the most of it!

What things do you think all students should do this year?!

Han xx

Kiehl’s Beauty Event

I’ve had a fairly rubbish start to January, just with my mental health not being where I want it to be, feeling homesick and just general January blues, so when Kiehl’s got in touch with me about attending a beauty event, I couldn’t have been happier. Something to look forward to and also hopefully get me out of the January blues and feeling a bit more motivated!

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So the event was primarily based around the products that Kiehl’s stock and their company history. Before attending, I had heard of the brand, but it is very much up market, so on a student budget, I’ve never been able to treat myself. Having said this I found out so much about general skincare and their products, that by the end of it I wish I had the money to just hand over my purse and take the whole range home!

It started off with a skincare routine using their products, some that really stood out to me and I’m sure will be added to upcoming wish lists of mine, was the Midnight Recovery Oil and also the Vitamin C Serum – proven to help with ageing, although I still have very young skin, the younger I can prevent ageing the better! We then went on to see what type of skin we all personally have. Prior to this event I was certain I had dry skin, but after a skin test it actually came up that I have dehydrated skin, which makes sense because I am terrible at drinking water.

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Kiehl’s are a company that are very proud of both their heritage and their use of natural ingredients. It’s a dermatologist recommended skincare brand – another reason why I was excited to be invited, as having very sensitive skin, I have to be incredibly careful with that products I opt to use; but with Kiehl’s being all natural and dermatologist approved, I’m luckily able to use them.

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All the bloggers that attended the event were lucky enough to receive a goody bag stuffed with miniature Kiehl’s goodies, including their best selling face cream which I cannot wait to try out! Not only this, but we also got given a set of herbal tea bags by Whittard, now if you know me well, it’ll come as no surprise that I got very very over excited by this, free tea, erm yes please!

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Overall I had a fabulous time, it was a brilliant first event of 2018 and I have also been invited to their launch party for a selection of new products next month, which I’m already excited about!

Han xx

25 Things Before I’m 25

25 Things Before I’m 25

One thing I am continually told is how aspirational I am, there is so much I want to achieve and experience over the coming years. I am currently sat writing this aged 18 (and 5 months) – those 5 months make all the difference, promise, with my whole life ahead of me. Turning 18 means that I am now an actual adult (how was that allowed to happen), but it also means that a whole new world of opportunities have been opened up for me. I no longer need permission to do anything, no longer need to travel with an adult, because I apparently I am one, I can do it all by myself, how exciting yet absolutely terrifying – I can literally do whatever I want, within reason of course.

That being said, I thought it would be a good idea for me to make a list of all the things I want to achieve and experience before I turn 25. I hope I am sat reading this in 7 years time having done everything on this list. So hola there future Han, I hope you’ve had the most amazing 7 years packed with exciting trips, experiences, embarrassing moments, laughs, and not too many tears (incase you had forgotten, 18 year old you shed too many tears and you vowed to not get upset over people that weren’t worth it).

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1) Girls Holidays 

Something that I think everyone should do at some point in their lives is a girls (or boys) holiday. I want to make sure I go on multiple girls holidays, try at least one a year, that may be  a bit optimistic, but its worth a shot.

2) Festivals 

love festivals, the best weekends of my life have been weekends spent drinking in fields listening to my favourite bands. I want to make sure that I go to at least 1 weekend festival every year too, even if they are the smaller ones, sometimes they’re the best ones.

3) Edinburgh Christmas Markets 

This may potentially seem like a really weird one, but I am a sucker for a good christmas market, nothing like sipping hot chocolate (or mulled wine if your tastebuds are sophisticated enough for that, mine definitely aren’t), while wandering around christmassy stalls. I’ve always seen so many pictures of Edinburgh at Christmas and it looks so festive, so thats somewhere on my list of places to visit.

4) Zip World Penrhyn Quarry 

Although I’m not a fan of heights, I really really really want to do the fastest Zip wire in the world, I recon it would be a pretty amazing experience.

5) Learn to Say No 

I’m the worst person when it comes to saying no to things that I don’t want to do, its almost like I don’t even know how to say the word. Hopefully by 25 I would have learnt that it’s okay to say no if I don’t want to do something and I shouldn’t feel bad for that.

6) Be More Spontaneous 

I’m not great at this, I normally like to have a complete plan when it comes to going out and doing things, I’d like to let get out of this comfort zone and do things without always thinking too much into it, planning it too much.

7) Go to America 

I’ve wanted to go to America for as long as I can remember, I’ve always said I’ve wanted to live there, but with there political system in absolute shambles, I don’t think that will be happening any time soon. But I definitely want to visit it, preferably either LA or New York.

8) Have a Weekend in Venice 

Ideally spent with my other half (any volunteers, hola me). Venice is another place I’ve always wanted to visit, I think its one of those places that I would only like to spend a weekend in though.

9) New York, Paris & Milan Fashion Week 

I studied Fashion and Textiles at college and am now specialising in Textile design, so I am a bit of a fashion hoe. Year on year I sit watching all the fashion weeks wishing I was there, so by the time I’m 25 I want to have been to these at least once.

10) Sign Up to a Gym

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, my heart will forever lie in running, but I’ve also wanted to start weight lifting for a while now. I mean with a dodgy back and knees it probably isn’t my best move, but I want to give it a go for sure.

11) Have Ran a Half and Be Training for a Full

That’s in regards to a marathon, incase you were wondering. While I’m young I want to focus on getting fast and hitting new PBs, but by 25 I want to be getting in the longer distances and by then my body should be ready for a full marathon, something I have always wanted to do.

12) Host My Own Dinner Party 

All of my friends will vouch for me when I say this, but I am utterly obsessed with Come Dine With Me and I’ve always wanted to host my own dinner party like Come Dine With Me, I mean I don’t know how well it would end, because I’m not a great cook, but I think it will be a laugh.

13) Try Being a Veggie 

Countless times have I said I am going to go vegetarian and countless times have I let myself down and not done it, don’t know what it is but I just can’t stick to it. Despite this, I want to give it a proper shot at some point.

14) Take a City Break Alone 

Take some time for myself, visit a city that I have always wanted too and explore it all on my own.

15) Stop Letting People Walk All Over Me 

I’m writing this as I have just been made a mug of once again (by ‘friends’), I refuse to let it keep happening, so by the time I hit 25 I refuse to let anyone walk all over me, and take me for a complete mug. It isn’t fair and I’m worth more than that.

16) Watch More Movies 

I always dread conversations when they turn to movie talk, because I have barely seen any movies ever and people always seem to judge me hard for that. So I’m going to at least try to watch some movies that I’m pretty sure I definitely should have seen by now.

17) Read More Books 

It calms your anxiety, will broaden your knowledge and writing skills, do I need any more reasons to do more of it? No, I think not.

18) Get My Dream Job

Still not entirely sure what that is yet, but by 25 I want to be well on my way to either having or getting my dream job within the Textiles Industry.

19) Teach Myself a New Language 

I’ve also said this for the longest time, I need to stop just saying it and actually do it. Not entirely sure what language I want to learn yet, but I think being able to speak another language is so cool and always an interesting talking point.

20) Dinner In The Sky

I think this will be a really cool date idea (any volunteers, swing my way), but dinner in the sky looks like the most amazing experience, not if you’re terrified of heights though, you probably wouldn’t like it.

21) Have My Own House or Flat 

Depending on where I’m living at 25 will depend on whether I have a house or flat, but by this age I want to have my own place that I can call mine. This may be hard work, but I’m willing to give it a go.

22) Learn to Surf 

I have wanted to learn to surf since I was about 10, so I think its about time I gave it a go, I know I’ll love it, I’ve just never got round to doing it before.

23) Try 10 New Restaurants I’ve Always Wanted to Go To 

Note to self, they aren’t allowed to be Italian. I love my Italian food, when I go out to eat, 9 times out of 10 it will be Italian food, so I need to get out and try new restaurants, places that I’ve always wanted to go to.

24) Teach Myself Photography (again)

I started to teach myself photography at about 13, but then for some reason got out of the habit of it, I recently picked it up again and had forgotten how much I love it. Don’t give it up this time.

25) Start Earning From Tattoo Design 

I’ve been tattoo designing for about a year now, but I am far to scared to start earning commission from them incase people don’t like them. I’ve so far stamped 4 people with my creations. So I want to get the confidence to start earning from my designs, because they are good enough.

Wow thats a lot for me to achieve over the next 7 years, best get going.

What are your goals for the coming years?

Han xx

2018 Goals

So that’s it, 2017 is over. The year that I have simultaneously been living my best and worst life and its all been a very odd sensation – if you want to read more about the shenanigans that 20017 held for me, take a look at this post HERE. I’m never really one to make New Years resolutions as such, because like 99% of the population, I won’t stick to them, at least I’ll admit that. Saying this, I do have a few goals for 2018, whether I’ll achieve them or not is a different question, but lets start how we mean to go on, right?!

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I used to be very much into my photography and I actually got pretty good at it, then life just sort of got in the way and my camera got neglected a little bit. I’m hoping that my blog will be a good incentive for upping my photography, because I then have an aim in mind of where my pictures are going – also knowing that other people are going to see them will make me, make more of an effort, or at least I hope so.

WORK ON MY MENTAL HEALTH

Although 2017 marked the start of me mentally getting better, I’m hoping to continue this throughout 2018, because my mental health is still miles away from where I would like it to be. At the start of 2017 I would only leave my house for college and work, but I ended the year having the best social life and having moved out, so thats just proof that I can get better and I am, I just need a bit more work on it.

RUNNING GOALS

Those of you who have been reading my blog for a while will know that I’m a runner, throughout 2018 there are a few running goals that I’m hoping to achieve. The first one to be run my first 10K race in sub 47 minutes, I’ve already ran it in 46 minutes, but that was just in training and not a race, so this year I want to run it in a race so it official. Not only this, but I’m going to run my first half marathon. Notice how I said going and not hoping to. This has been something that I’ve wanted to do since I started running 2 years ago, so now I’m old enough, it’s going to happen this year.

STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK

One of my worst traits is that I am always so ridiculously paranoid about what other people think of me, also that they are always thinking the worst of me. In reality why should I give a fuck about what someone else thinks of me, as long as I’m happy, then lets face it, other peoples opinions really are irrelevant.

SEIZE EVERY OPPORTUNITY

Over the past couple of years, where I’ve been suffering with my mental health, I’ve turned down so many opportunities, the majority of them social events and 2018 is going to be the year that I make up for this. I want to vow to myself that I’m going to take every opportunity that comes my way, whether that be social or not, take it and roll with it, start living.

LEARN TO COOK BETTER

Funnily enough I’m actually a really good cook, but ever since I moved out to university, I would be lying if I told you the majority of my diet wasn’t just pasta and green tea. It’s surprising I’m yet to turn into a fusilli twist if I’m completely honest. This year I’m going to make sure I start to cook myself actual dinners that aren’t just pasta with alternating sauces. Although I’m sure pesto pasta will still be a weekly occurrence, I’m not ready to give that one up just yet.

BLOG AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK

When I moved out in September and started university, my blog very much got neglected as I simply just couldn’t balance it. But this year I want to try my best to balance it, and blog at least once a week if not more. I think once a week is a reasonable goal that I can achieve, it also means I’m not putting myself under too much pressure with blogging, because when that happens I sort of lose my love for it, which I don’t want to happen.

PUT MYSELF FIRST

I have a real tendency to always put other peoples happiness before my own, which I mean isn’t always a bad thing, but I think it has sometimes been detrimental to my own happiness. This year I want to make sure that I’m happy, to do more of what makes me happy and to take time for myself. I think this is something I was terrible at throughout last year, I thought I constantly had to be  a busy little bee, leading to me rarely taking time out for myself and my metal wellbeing. This year I need to do more of this, have at least one evening a week to myself, off social media – doing things that make me happy.

FINISH 1ST YEAR WITH AT LEAST A 2:1

My goal has always been to graduate my 3 years of university with a First Class degree, so if I can finish of my first year with a 2:1 that will mean I am on the right track and I will be immensely happy with this.

 

GET MYSELF DOWN TO THE GYM

This isn’t really one at the forefront of my mind because its not like I’m doing it to lose weight, more so to just try something new. My heart lies in running and probably always will do, but theres no harm in giving the gym a go too and seeing whether it takes my fancy as much as running does.

MAYBE LEARN A NEW LANGUAGE

I say maybe because if I’m entirely honest the chances of this happening are fairly slim, but its a goal of mine, so why not chuck it on here too. For the longest time now I’ve said I’ve wanted to learn Mandarin, don’t ask why, I’ve just really wanted too. Saying this, I’ve always loved the sound of Spanish and Italian, so we’ll see what takes my fancy, I’ll be sure to keep you updated on my progress with this one.

So thats my goals for 2018, like I say whether I actually achieve them is anyones guess, but I’m quite a determined and head strong person, so I’d like to think I will achieve them, I’ll be sure to keep you in the know about it all. I’ll probably do a post at the end of the year reflecting on whether I’ve actually completed them all or not, but thats far too far in the future for me to think about.

Happy New Year,

Han xxx